the best summer ever; because of you.
My first summer with you, was also the best.
For I learnt how to love, and how love feels like.
I had my first kiss, my first touch, my first hugs.
I learnt that to love someone, you learn to let them go.
I learnt that to love someone, you learn to let yourself go too; for them.
whispers of summer
her story
friends
birdsongs
memories
sunrays
sometimes what i want to say isn't apparent through what you just see(:
Sunday, July 26, 2009
endless loop.
endless loop.it's still on repeat, that song.
[the number of blessings you used to need to count just to make you happy again; you used to.] 10:48 pm
Saturday, July 25, 2009
again.
again.i really should stop listening to sad songs.crypted, again;
the key is the lock itself.
it's up there.and yet i love these bittersweet things,
especially the ones that make me cry so bad.for it's because they mean all the more 7:34 pm
Sunday, July 19, 2009
wolfcry; [encrypted.]
hidden. before you ask me for the key, this much i shall say -
to open this writing you need to know, something has been locked and the key buried
a little bird will unearth the way; robin is your friend.not forgetting that i read too much for my own good.[yes it's the title of a book, no caps.]the lock itself is concealed too; but just one click is all you need, to find out where to put the key. you may enter thereafter. 1:28 am
Friday, July 17, 2009
of green tea.
of green tea.
bittersweet it was
first sweet, darkening into bitterness
not a miserable bitterness, but quite like that of ice wine
perfect without, yet nonetheless worth
the momentary cringe
while it sheds its chrysalis
and the legendary ethereal sweetness
flutters into existence ever so
delicately
pity the more you try
to net and bottle its shimmering radiance
the more it dances, out
of your reach, control;
but not your mind...
that dear bottle's still in my fridge
the sweet, lovely elixir too precious to deplete
but oh - how befitting
that like only gives rise to like, mm? 10:42 pm
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
phoenix waltz;
phoenix waltz;
closed off from love, i didn't need the pain
once [or twice] was enough, and it was all in vain
time starts to pass; before you know it you're frozen..
but something happened for the very first time with you
my heart melted to the ground, found something true
i hear you, in my dreams,
you're all i see;
as the world keeps spinning round
you hold me here, right here right now
i know this is a feeling that i just can't hide
you're the first and last thing on my mind;
you make me wanna hold you till the morning light
i remember the days we spent together were not enough
and we used to feel like dreaming except we always woke up
never thought not having you here now would hurt so much..
when i said go, i never meant away
you ought to know the freaky games we play
could you forgive and learn how to forget
hear me as i'm calling out your name
how can i not love you; what do i tell my heart
when do i not want you here in my arms
how does one waltz away from all of the memories
how do i not miss you, when you are gone
you've been the only thing that's right
in all i've done
and i can barely look at you
but every single time i do
i know we'll make it anyway
away from here
firefly come back to me
make the night as bright as day
i'll be looking out for you
tell me that you're lonely too;
firefly come lead me on
follow you into the sun
that's the way it ought to be
firefly come back to me
and every night i miss you i can just look up
and know the stars are holding you, holding you
holding you, tonight
for we know shooting stars last eternally
it's just that the others catch but fleeting glimpses of them.
they never found out, did they -
about anticlockwise pirouettes and quiet stolen moments
they'll never understand the dancing glances
where mangofish come alive and water features are for swimming in
for all the dreams you made memories;♥ 11:20 pm
Friday, July 10, 2009
i know why the bright stars hide.
i know why the bright stars hide.have grades become everything, honestlyi still can't figure it out how people can get so annoyed with you because you did better than themi should just hide my grades from everyone except my family, isn't iti know why zk's so reluctant to reveal his grades every time now. and why jiejun told me not to tell anyone his chem grades. but really, is it wrong to get the grades you deserve after all the work you put in?i'm missing the rg days even more now - back then it never mattered what you got to others; people never hated the top in class, in fact they wanted her paper all the more so they could learn from it. they never got jealous of her grades, they used it as a benchmark, as a target. and in the end, everyone gets motivated to study well and do better and better.shouldn't how that everything should be, even now?i miss the days where i could go out with my friends after the exam results came back and all of us would just be happy we had each other, even when they were the ones not doing so well for the very test i topped the class with. i miss the days where people were so gracious about the good grades you got, no matter what they got. i miss the days where our lives didn't seem to be so torturously run by our grades; we valued friendship far above.but life moves on and things have changed; i guess i should just learn to shut up about what i get from now on. now i know why the bright stars hide. because if they don't, everyone else shoots them down.of all the times i've cried over my grades, it's the first time i've cried so hard about getting my A's. the irony of it all. 'can you stop being so brilliant please you're showing the rest of us up', indeedand the best thing is, only yiting seems to care; no one else does 8:37 pm
Wednesday, July 08, 2009
silence is golden.
silence is golden.evidently i've been arguing against this rather in vain all the time, and since i keep getting proven wrong time and time again, so.end of story time to shut up and hide everything inside not like what i think people should do matters anyway besides it's not up to me to comment or judge. hsllg nv gsilfts gsv svzig horg nb gsilzg zmw hrovmxv nb elrxv. 11:20 pm
Thursday, July 02, 2009
little perplexities.
little perplexities.is it just me, or has the subtle become too subtle, and the telepathy so invisible it's outdone itself into inexistence?is my wish upon a star losing its reassuring radiance...? i'd like to think not, but idk any more.i'm sick of studying. but i don't really care if anyone else doesn't care.yeah, anyone -else-. 4:13 pm
Sunday, July 26, 2009
endless loop. endless loop.it's still on repeat, that song.
[the number of blessings you used to need to count just to make you happy again; you used to.]
Saturday, July 25, 2009
again. again.i really should stop listening to sad songs.crypted, again;
the key is the lock itself.
it's up there.and yet i love these bittersweet things,
especially the ones that make me cry so bad.for it's because they mean all the more
Sunday, July 19, 2009
wolfcry; [encrypted.] hidden. before you ask me for the key, this much i shall say -
to open this writing you need to know, something has been locked and the key buried
a little bird will unearth the way; robin is your friend.not forgetting that i read too much for my own good.[yes it's the title of a book, no caps.]the lock itself is concealed too; but just one click is all you need, to find out where to put the key. you may enter thereafter.
Friday, July 17, 2009
of green tea. of green tea.
bittersweet it was
first sweet, darkening into bitterness
not a miserable bitterness, but quite like that of ice wine
perfect without, yet nonetheless worth
the momentary cringe
while it sheds its chrysalis
and the legendary ethereal sweetness
flutters into existence ever so
delicately
pity the more you try
to net and bottle its shimmering radiance
the more it dances, out
of your reach, control;
but not your mind...
that dear bottle's still in my fridge
the sweet, lovely elixir too precious to deplete
but oh - how befitting
that like only gives rise to like, mm?
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
phoenix waltz; phoenix waltz;
closed off from love, i didn't need the pain
once [or twice] was enough, and it was all in vain
time starts to pass; before you know it you're frozen..
but something happened for the very first time with you
my heart melted to the ground, found something true
i hear you, in my dreams,
you're all i see;
as the world keeps spinning round
you hold me here, right here right now
i know this is a feeling that i just can't hide
you're the first and last thing on my mind;
you make me wanna hold you till the morning light
i remember the days we spent together were not enough
and we used to feel like dreaming except we always woke up
never thought not having you here now would hurt so much..
when i said go, i never meant away
you ought to know the freaky games we play
could you forgive and learn how to forget
hear me as i'm calling out your name
how can i not love you; what do i tell my heart
when do i not want you here in my arms
how does one waltz away from all of the memories
how do i not miss you, when you are gone
you've been the only thing that's right
in all i've done
and i can barely look at you
but every single time i do
i know we'll make it anyway
away from here
firefly come back to me
make the night as bright as day
i'll be looking out for you
tell me that you're lonely too;
firefly come lead me on
follow you into the sun
that's the way it ought to be
firefly come back to me
and every night i miss you i can just look up
and know the stars are holding you, holding you
holding you, tonight
for we know shooting stars last eternally
it's just that the others catch but fleeting glimpses of them.
they never found out, did they -
about anticlockwise pirouettes and quiet stolen moments
they'll never understand the dancing glances
where mangofish come alive and water features are for swimming in
for all the dreams you made memories;♥
Friday, July 10, 2009
i know why the bright stars hide. i know why the bright stars hide.have grades become everything, honestlyi still can't figure it out how people can get so annoyed with you because you did better than themi should just hide my grades from everyone except my family, isn't iti know why zk's so reluctant to reveal his grades every time now. and why jiejun told me not to tell anyone his chem grades. but really, is it wrong to get the grades you deserve after all the work you put in?i'm missing the rg days even more now - back then it never mattered what you got to others; people never hated the top in class, in fact they wanted her paper all the more so they could learn from it. they never got jealous of her grades, they used it as a benchmark, as a target. and in the end, everyone gets motivated to study well and do better and better.shouldn't how that everything should be, even now?i miss the days where i could go out with my friends after the exam results came back and all of us would just be happy we had each other, even when they were the ones not doing so well for the very test i topped the class with. i miss the days where people were so gracious about the good grades you got, no matter what they got. i miss the days where our lives didn't seem to be so torturously run by our grades; we valued friendship far above.but life moves on and things have changed; i guess i should just learn to shut up about what i get from now on. now i know why the bright stars hide. because if they don't, everyone else shoots them down.of all the times i've cried over my grades, it's the first time i've cried so hard about getting my A's. the irony of it all. 'can you stop being so brilliant please you're showing the rest of us up', indeedand the best thing is, only yiting seems to care; no one else does
Wednesday, July 08, 2009
silence is golden. silence is golden.evidently i've been arguing against this rather in vain all the time, and since i keep getting proven wrong time and time again, so.end of story time to shut up and hide everything inside not like what i think people should do matters anyway besides it's not up to me to comment or judge. hsllg nv gsilfts gsv svzig horg nb gsilzg zmw hrovmxv nb elrxv.
Thursday, July 02, 2009
little perplexities. little perplexities.is it just me, or has the subtle become too subtle, and the telepathy so invisible it's outdone itself into inexistence?is my wish upon a star losing its reassuring radiance...? i'd like to think not, but idk any more.i'm sick of studying. but i don't really care if anyone else doesn't care.yeah, anyone -else-.
i'm just the girl in the corner, the girl with the wistful eyes;
jiaying
seventeen! but that'll change on 220910 xD
rafflesian
113'05, 210'06, 315'07, 415'08 10S03P!
redcrosser passed out;
tribunist [vchair yay :D] said farewell;
but i'll never forget those days(:
archer! :D
still a writer, yep.
save me...
absolutely deranged
chocoholic
shopaholic
complete psychotic
stress-hater
panicky [i'm serious.]
unfortunately, more often than not, a broken rose.
... before i drive myself mad.
je t'aime;
rgsrcy
tribune
rj archery!
writers' guild!
reading! xD
dancing <3!
singing
going on facebook and playing random games there HAHA
grand pianos [oh, nothing beats a grand!]
black; pink; chocolate brown :D
astronomy; knitting; archeryyy(:
pool; bridge; mahjong! xD
chemistry! [favourite subject (:]
needless to say, we must never leave out the two essences of life, chocolate and shopping! i can never do without
them hahaha(x
for all life is a dream, and dreams themselves are only dreams;
ra science nahh no chance alr. but nevermind(:
>3.6 gpa [HAHA YES I DID IT FOR SECTHREE!(:]
tribune chair vchair's good enough. and in any case, my term's over anyway.
>3.6 SECFOUR gpa! YES I DID IT AGAIN! :D
rj chem ra! thank God i got in! :D
or uwc nordic! didn't apply; decided that specialising in sciences was the wiser choice, given my inaptitude
for humanities ><
rj dance! street/intl also can :D :Dbut nevermind, because rj archery pwns all now!
not forgetting the typical wish for world peace, duh. (:
and i wish i could have him. or at least, if we're not meant to be, someone to love
and to love me back. &it's true that love ends up being a battlefield sometimes, but it's still love; blessed
love.
for we were meant to last forever;
i find my paradise when you look me in the eyes-
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